wow...

All of the sudden, I feel a profound depression coming over me. It is Singles Awareness Day, but hey, I'm always aware that I'm single, this day is nothing special in that regard. I'm also always aware that I'm lonely. Speaking of which, apparently Stephanie heard a rumor about me. Someone told her to be careful around me because I'm a flirt and a player...um...where did this come from? People that know me, correct me if I'm wrong, but I'm not either of those. I asked her who told her that, and she said she couldn't remember.
Anywhat...so, yes I'm particularly lonely today, or rather, right now...I wasn't earlier. Megan and I talked about Spring Formal...I will probably ask Amber soon, see if I can talk her into it like I did Audrey in 11th grade, lol. Fun memories. That was when Emily broke her toe by accidentally kicking a speaker stand...funny in retrospect. But, I hope Amber will go with me. I really do like her, even though pity and curiosity may also be factors. In a strange way, I kind of hope she does read my blog occasionally...but only if she would talk to me about what I write here. hmm...I'll probably end up crying tonight...imagine that...a college guy that cries himself to sleep...but, as I told Lloyd today, I'm psycho and I have the pills to prove it...but of course, if the pills were doing their job, I shouldn't feel this way...maybe one day I'll get tired of it and quit them for good.