blargh

just letting you know I haven't died yet...not that I haven't wanted to in the past 24hrs, but I haven't done myself in. Loneliness gets overwhelming, particularly when there's never going to be an end to it. Cried myself to sleep last night...don't know if that will happen tonight or not. Took Mike to walmart so he could get something to eat....I ended up getting three 2 liter bottles for $3...friggin good deal. actually, they were $.89 a piece. Then we went to Wendy's where he ate, and I got a Frosty. I'm just going to drop the zoloft...it isn't doing any good any more. and I need to be able to lose weight fast, screw my health...I have to lose at the very least, five pounds before the end of January. Gotta be able to fit into those tuxedo pants, or I'll have to buy or rent some for that concert. I hate me.