I feel...nothing...again

Yeah, one of those times when I feel nothing, and I hate feeling nothing. I'm not going to take the zoloft tonight...though, that may not be a good idea, since I'm going bowling tomorrow....you know, the whole spontaneous anger thing. But it's for the best though...keep my eating down...I've got to get off of it entirely...I just need to crash, last time I did was when I lost weight....lost 25lbs, to be precise. It was wonderful. oi, busy with Utopia stuff...trying to decide who to go to war with. I kinda wish there was someone on to talk to, but I don't know what I would say. Lonely, tired....I guess that could describe my mood. and I wish I hadn't wasted all of my mana in Utopia...strike that....you know, I'm starting to think that mana doesn't affect your likelihood of spell success....it just limits the number of spells you can cast...so I went and cast some spells, and I'm happy....somewhat....I'm going to go play Dynasty Warriors for a few....I just want to cripple someone in Utopia...it's been so long since I've gotten to cripple someone....lol.