so soothing

classical music....namely, at the moment, a piece from Star Wars Episode II. The chase through Coruscant...anyway, still down, despite the music....it's eating away at me. I need to hit bottom, so I'm going to skip the zoloft for a day or two so I can do that. I'll feel better afterwards, but being on this low plateau (hey, I rhymed) is killing me. Erin said something today about how there's nothing wrong with being single, and I shouldn't expect to find someone to marry at my age...very true. But that information does nothing for me. All it says to me is that I'd better get used to my loneliness because it's going to be here for a long time. Sucks. I often wonder how long I can last like this, before I just fall apart because I can't take it anymore...and then in the darkest corners of my mind, I wonder if finding companionship will help at all. Scary. But yeah, my posts for the next few days are liable to be dark...just trying to hit bottom.