I oughtta just go to bed instead of doin this...

yeah, I'm tired, bored, I wanna talk to someone, but no one's on.....hmm, maybe I'll go sift through my archives....I'm going to meet my dad and Chrisanne in Smithfield tomorrow to exchange gifts. Maybe I'll get some bumper stickers for my car....I gave them my list of favorites, maybe I should post them here....aw, heck, why not, let me go find them....dang, it won't let me paste them into the post...I guess I'll just tell you the one's I put on my car when I get them.
And, further news today, I went and saw a movie with my mom, we went to see "Ocean's Twelve", it was really good, but you have to be smart to be able to follow it, because it's really complicated. I didn't quite figure it out, though it's rather impossible, you just know something's up, you know? anyways, not feelin too great here, my mom briefly introduced me to her coworker and her coworker's daughter. her daughter was pretty, about my age, wish I could've talked to her some, but this was in the theater. it just makes me start thinkin about how I'm out at the movies with my mom, I don't have any girls that would go with me, not likely to find one either until college unless someone sets me up on a blind date or something.....I'm just sick of being alone. I hate it. I mean, my friends are alright to a point, but that's not the companionship I need right now. you know, I was randomly thinking about what would happen to me if ever ended up going to prison.....I'd probably kill myself to get away from the loneliness....which is kinda strange, because I'd rather be in the isolation cell than with cellmates, but I'm talking about the emotional loneliness. Anyway, I guess the point of all this is, and this will come as no surprise because you've heard it so many times, but I need love. That's all I'm asking for right now. I know God has a plan for me in this area, I'd just wish he'd give me a flashlight so that I can see somewhat where I'm going. It amazes me how people can abuse their ability to attract others, to form relationships. Playa's, you know what I mean? The "hump-'em-and-dump-'em" crowd. They waste their lives and abilities doing this, hurt so many people, while guys like me can rarely ever manage even a single date. *sigh* I don't know where I was going with that, I'm going to go reminisce now.