oh, what to do...

I just can't post all that often anymore, between school and work. oh well, I'm off school for the rest of the week, so I'll post every day to make up for it. Today sucks, it's not raining anymore, the system passed. Still, can't be that bad, I'm working 7-close on a Wednesday night, shouldn't be too bad of a night. Writing a new song, this time I actually have a tune for it, so it will likely be our first real song. Just gotta finish the lyrics, maybe write a musical bridge. Went to my dad's this past weekend for Chrisanne's 50th birthday, that was pretty fun. So, hmm....what else to say?
Med's seem to work pretty well. Counselor wants me to ask out a couple of girls this month, haha. Said it didn't matter who, or even if I liked them, haha again. I think that's pretty funny, actually. Considering it goes against my very nature. Two reasons: one, it's embarassing to ask some one out and they tell you they have a boyfriend already (kinda like trying to hook up with a married person, just not as bad), and two, well, as I have experienced, asking someone out tends to change the way they look at you, particularly if they say no. it just makes future contact, well, awkward for that person. I don't like to do that to people. To use my previous analogy of shooting blindly, it's like a near miss: they're going to think, why'd he shoot at me, and I wanna stay away from him so he doesn't shoot again. That sort of thing. This becomes a big problem when your school is small. Because of size, everyone is closer, frequent contact is inevitable. I mean, there's 180 people in our high school. But he's right about another thing, that I need to expand my horizons. Basically, I need to meet new people, get out of my normal stomping grounds, go somewhere new to look. Hard thing to do, with my schedule. He's gonna help me out though, that's what he said. Blind date, or find a place for me to go, something like that. Anyway, lunch time, then I gotta call jordan, see if I can go over there.