fast forward?

I need a fast forward button for the rest of this week. Maybe for next week too. It's just going to suck. Basically, I don't get to see Megan for the next two weeks except for the mornings that I walk with her to class. Why? Because she doesn't have time for me. I understand about her plans tonight. I understand about her class that starts next week. I understand that it's my plans on Sunday evening that messes up that night. I guess the hardest thing for me to accept is that she would rather watch a TV show than spend time with me tomorrow night when she knows she won't get to see me for a while.

I guess tomorrow night is the worst, because I agreed to leave the room for a few hours so that Mike and Tova can have it to themselves. What the hell am I supposed to do with myself for three or four hours? Friends? What friends? I've never been one to socialize much, so while I don't have plans, the few friends I have on campus do. Of course, none of my friends on campus are people I just "hang out" with. If we get together at all, it's for something specific. I don't even have DnD nights anymore. Close friends that I do have don't live anywhere near here. Last time I left the room, I walked around campus. I'll probably just do that again. Walk around until I collapse. Yay.

*sigh* I feel like shit.