last free night

I still gotta work tomorrow night,, as far as I know, I still don't have the rest of the weekend off, but screw them if I don't, I asked off for this trip back in December, so I'm going. still haven't packed yet, probably some tomorrow, and then on Saturday. Tomorrow better not be a bad night. That's the last thing I need. Calculus and stats tests tomorrow. oi, funny thing is, on nights like these, I have nothing to do....I'm so used to either filming or working every night, I don't know what to do with a night off.....wonder who I'm working with tomorrow....dang, I'm tired, but I'm going to stay up for CSI, don't get to watch TV much. anyway, I have nothing good to write about, so I'll write when I get back.

GAA!!!! EVIL INCARNATION OF SATAN!!!!!

yeah, that's what this computer is. I just had a long post going, and then it wouldn't let me post it, so I tried to copy what I had written, it wouldn't let me, and I thought it had copied, and I pasted to check, and it was something else that had been copied earlier.....I was going to explain the title of my blog. so, I'll just have to write up the condensed version.
One: I came up with the title back when I wasn't on meds, back when I was cutting and contemplating suicide, so, yes, that title did apply to me. And it still does, for the second reason.
Two: Think of "Breakdown in 3/4" by Project 86. look up the lyrics on christianrocklyrics.com. http://christianrocklyrics.com. This song is sarcastic, presenting the world's view of Christians, that they're obsolete. The title of my blog is the world's view of me and my ideas, specifically, my observations on society and people. They don't like to be called shallow and ignorant. They like even less to believe that they're those things. So they take the coward's way out, and label me as crazy so that they don't have to listen to me. Comprenden?
Anyway's, gotta drive home tomorrow, maybe I'll get to practice with Chris and Travis on "The Red"....no work till friday, then we spend the night in Raleigh on Saturday, leave for Zambia on Sunday.

hmm, fascinating...

isn't it amazing how quickly people judge others? This chick just read the post I just did, and had the audacity to classify me based on that one post? wow.....that's all I can say....it's really incredible.....*sigh* ignorance is truly the bane of humanity....

bout time I got back here

hmm, well, so much has been going on, I don't have time to write about it. I wrote a new poem on Tuesday....or....no, the Friday before. I'll post it. Wrote it at the Parrott game. I let some people read it, most didn't get it. I told Caitlin I'd explain it to her, so this got us started exchanging notes. Remember what happened last time I started exchanging notes with a girl? I hope this won't be a repeat. At least, I hope that if it is, it goes somewhere instead of nowhere by the first week and a half. And it had better work if it does. Not that I intend to start anything. She's a freshman, that has some issues tied to it, even though she's more mature than most of the junior girls at my school. Anyways, she hasn't been doing too good, her brother accidentally paper cut her eye, so she's been pretty miserable. She has to wear a pirate patch.
Haven't gotten much sleep this week....worked on Valentine's, very busy, Tuesday was a game at CAPE FEAR, that's in wilmington, like, two and a half hours away via cheeswagon. on top of that, when I got home that night, I still had a college english test to study for. Stayed up late wed. night working on a paper for bible. Thursday was work, I was running the shift. didn't go too bad. Today, I drove to my dad's. That's where I am for the weekend. um....not much else to say here...."The Forgotten" is an awesome movie, don't bother watching the alternate ending though, it's stupid the theater version's so much better. Well, you know what I gotta do when I see a movie like that? gotta do a fan fiction in my head. So, I'm gonna go to bed and do just that. been having weird dreams lately, I love weird dreams. So long as they don't become nightmares. Although, I have learned how to control portions of my dreams, I can assume telekinetic powers in my dreams, it helps when you're having a nightmare, you can turn the tables on whatever's chasing you. It's hard to take control though. lots of concentration, you concentrate on it so much that you'll end up waking up. Anyways, g'night for now.

hmm....uh...

can't think of a title. Well, recap of newsworthy events of my day. Went for that full-ride scholarship interview today. there were 107 students total, and only four will be given out, so I probably won't get it. I'm over at Alex's right now, we were playing Ghost Recon, now we're watching old America's Funniest Home Videos, back when they had Bob Saggett. Friday night we had an away game at Cape Fear Academy, in Wilmington. We lost, as usual, but the guy's varsity game was close. it was their homecoming night. you should have seen the duchess of the court. she was a beast. she was bigger than any of the guys on the court. she must have been over six foot, two hundred pounds...not to mention that she looked like she was thirty something years old. Finished a song there, haven't posted it yet. Always depressing to watch Brooke and Ryan, Justin and Ashley. Let Amelia and Jessie read what I wrote, they wanted me to tell them what it meant, but I didn't want to tell them, so I explained another one of my songs to them. I confess I was looking for a little bit of sympathy from them, didn't get any....that's to be expected though.....people like that can't understand me. I mean, they're nice enough, but honestly, I think they're too self-absorbed to see or care about other people's problems. okay, now we're watching a movie that we don't know the title to.....really weird movie....definitely anti-prep....which, the funny thing is, they cast the wrong guy for the lead role, because he's a prep...the chick's alright, she could easily be a goth, but him? blah....so bland, so average and predictable. anyway, I want to finish it before I go home.....okay, it's over, mildly interesting, but wouldn't recommend it. Anyway, I'm outta here, gotta get some sleep.

quick one

Don't have time for much, just wanna say that we won our last home game, it was awesome, and I went bowling today, got a 204 and a 178. That first one's my best game to date...hopefully I'll get better though. playing in chapel tomorrow for about 30 minutes, hopefully it will go well.