the last week...

have two more exams on friday, then I move out...that's a lot of packing I have to do...probably end up doing most of it on thursday...though, I'll probably be just as bored tomorrow as I was today, and start packing then. My last two exams promise to be hard ones. Both are cumulative, and cover tons of information. I'll start studying tomorrow as well. Don't have a job yet. Sucks, I really want a good job, one that I'll enjoy...I need the money. Ah, I forgot that I didn't update my blog this weekend. Charlotte was...long...the service alone was 3.5 hours long. People said that we were the best choir. I had a headache by the time it was over though, made me nauseous. Stupid french words...had to double check the spelling on that one. Got to see Audrey, we had dinner together. Most enjoyable. I wish she were still here. I'm feeling disgusted with myself again. I feel like I'm disgusting to look at, I know I'm overweight, I feel like I'm...dull, you know? a very uninteresting person to be around. Though, I know there are a ton of people that will disagree with me. I want my life to have meaning, to be worth it, but no matter how hard I try, I'm always fighting a losing battle, it seems. Hmm...I can't say that no one reads this anymore though...Brian discovered it too. I don't really feel like sleeping...what am I to do then?