remember, when you're on antipsychotics...

Take them. I missed my dose, and you know what? I'm dizzy as hell. That's the Risperdal, or the lack of. Speaking of meds, that's the theme for our Utopia kingdom this age, Pharmaceuticals....I went with "Zoloft 50mg". Furthermore, I'm supposed to be the monarch this age....my first time, so we'll see how I do....I'm still not sure whether our kingdom stayed together, or if we merged with another...all I know is that three of us really good players are still together, so that counts for something. I expect a lot more people will show up tomorrow, as today is only the first day, and the clock doesn't start till wednesday. I bowled today on some of the suckiest lanes I've ever seen in my life. I don't even want to discuss it. you know, I just saw an advertisement for that show "Wildfire" I think it's on TNT. A stupid prep show...not as bad as "The O.C.", but still a stupid prep show. What makes it so stupid is that whoever casts for those shows is a completely incompetent moron....well, not for the OC, it's supposed to be a prep show, but Wildfire is supposed to be about a girl with problems in her life....I look at that girl, I swear, she's never had a worse problem than a bad hair day. the guys that fall for her "bad girl" image (heh, yeah right), they're complete dicks, and the director actually has the gall to portray these people as the good guys, the people who are right, have the right view on life. I'm just shakin my head. This sort of utopian vision has ruled movies and TV forever. Books are even picking up on it. Whatever happened to telling a story to teach someone about life? Any book in my favorites list in my profile is a book that is, how might I say, "non-utopian", that is, it shows reality. So you say people want to escape reality. heh. escape nothing. All this does is make you hate your life even worse because you envy the people you are reading about/watching on TV. "Reality TV" my ass. Scripted, it's all fiction, real life isn't like that, just because it's not filmed on a set doesn't mean it's real. What fiction should do is present reality in a way that teaches you to appreciate what you have in life, not teach you to envy others and thereby make yourselves miserable. You say that's boring. okay....try reading some of those books on my list. Excellent books. or, I might just post some of my books and stories, because that's how I write. For example let me tell you about some of my characters.
Melanie: sure, she's hot girl in a violent sport, kickboxing (though, I may change it to boxing, easier to research). given that description, any hack in LA can come up with a script not unlike the shows I mentioned above. However, I show you the things they won't. I show her HUMANITY. she's got real problems that make her somewhat unattractive, make her REAL. She's almost got two conflicting personalities. One side, she's extremely hot-tempered, even violent towards her friends (in one scene, she decks her boyfriend for basically nothing, and she has sort of a feud going on with his best friend, she hates him, insults him to his face and behind his back to her boyfriend). The other, she's very insecure about herself. She's scared of getting close in a relationship, because she was manipulated and abused by her last boyfriend, he even tried to rape her (which is when she left him, obviously) , but then she meets a guy who she thinks is perfect for her, and she wants to be close, but she's scared to be. So, in a nutshell, she's an outwardly very attractive girl, but she's got some serious emotional issues.
David: this is Melanie's friend, then boyfriend, fiancee, and finally husband. She's attracted to him because he's a guy that treats her right. He's gentlemanly, a good listener, always knows intuitively when and how she needs support, and gives it to her. Sounds great, right? I've seen "hunks" in movies portrayed like that. the so called "perfect guy", the one's the girls all love. Well, he isn't exactly like one of them. Outwardly, he's definitely an average joe. kind of lanky, unkempt longish hair and gotee. And very quiet, almost shy. He's not the type of guy that women chase after. again, in a nutshell, outwardly not eyecatching, but inside, he's got his marbles together. Stable...kind of like gold :D
well, I'll just post some of that book, so you can get your own idea of how I present REAL people. you see, the secret to that is this: real people are multidimensional. The characters you see on shows like Wildfire, in movies like um....I don't know, my brain's not in perfect order tonight, let's say a stupid Richard Gere movie, or Leonardo DiCaprio movie (I'm thinking Titanic's "love" story), they are one dimensional, those characters have no real flaws. That is what makes a great, and believeable character, is that they have good points and bad points, they have one side that they portray to the everyone, and they have a side that they hide. For the best example, let's examine me.
Look at my pictures. I'm nothing special, I know I'm not attractive, regardless of what old women say (don't ya hate that? they think everyone is so handsome, or so cute, etc, frankly it gets old after a while when everyone I meet that is over the age of 60 says something about my red hair). I've had a number of girls my age confirm that for me. So, I really have no good points about my physical appearance. Now, let's examine the far more complicated part of me, my personality. I have plenty of good points there. All of David's good points in his personality, those are my good points. Girls, good luck finding a guy that will treat you better than I will without having an ulterior motive (in other words, if they don't think they're going to get sex, say good bye to mr. nice guy). I am an honest, straightforward, caring person. I know people. I could show you copies of conversations I've had with people online where I'm telling them things about them and their feelings, and they're amazed at how much I know, and these are people I had just met in person and gotten their email addresses. God's gifted me, and I use it to help people, usually girls, because they'll talk to me about their problems, guys usually prefer to work their problems out by themselves, but that's another issue. I'm also very loyal. I would never even dream of cheating on any girl I was in a relationship with. Okay, those are my good points. but I do have some bad ones. I have a low self-esteem regarding my physical appearance. I have major depression, and have a history of cutting, and I'm on medication for both. I have a language problem, but usually only if I'm alone. Like all guys, I have a problem with lust. Though it rarely manifests, and there are only a few things that can provoke it, I have a problem with rage. It mainly has to do with my mom's husband, which I won't say any more about, because even talking about it makes me so angry my hands shake.
Well, it's midnight, and that's me. Anyone want to add to the list?