From Zambia-Day Two Mar. 1

Drove forever today to get to the village, mostly dirt roads. Took 10 hrs to het here. People on the road always waved at us. WE set up our hase camp. My pool float that I'm sleeping on has a leak. It's so friggin hot here, even at night. I'm still lonely. The other girl, Jen, she'll never care about me either. Today the guys talked about how much they missed their girls. Except for Justin L., he's got Ashley here. I swear, it hurts worse than anyting. That's what makes me feel so worthless. I'm not worth anyone's love. That's why I'm never going to get it.